Friday, January 30, 2009

The death of a life's work

Okay I don't know where to start so here is the past two weeks in a nutshell

Work computer crashes... a few days later... my home computer's hard drive dies... I lose my life's work... I mourn losing my life's work... I get the flu... I sleep an entire day and barely move...well only enough to munch some toast...

Lord I need some grace and a good day! I'm hoping my friends tea party will give me some fun and recharging.

Maybe this is my chance to be free of my past work and start fresh with design. Be different, edgy, exciting in my creativity. I have to put a positive spin on this! It's just too sad to think about it any other way...

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

My first appointment finally!

I finally remembered to call the midwife today! I have an appointment for 2:15 PM on Monday. Yay!

I'm debating on taking Corben with me. They said that she doesn't mind if children come with you. I'll see how I feel about it. I just hope there aren't as many visits. I don't want to have 2 hour long ob visits with a one year old every month and then very week.

It's a whole new dynamic!
I hope I like the midwife... if I don't I'll probably go back to my old OB. We'll see.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009


It's a snow day! We actually have snow in SC/GA. I got Corben all bundled up and took him outside to catch some snowflakes.


Reminds me of when I was in 7th grade and my family moved to Pennsylvania for my Dad to pastor a church there. We got a couple inches of snow that year and my brother and I were freaking out! Of course everyone there thought we were crazy because they were used to seeing feet of snow. But a couple of inches was amazing to us. We built snowmen and had snowball fights. It was great. It's the little things people! You have to enjoy the little things...

Friday, January 16, 2009

Preggo Update

I haven't really said much about the upcoming new arrival so I thought I would do a little "preggo update." So far its been mostly nausea setting in. I feel tired but don't have time to be tired because I'm chasing a one year old around. It's a whole new definition of tired! I'm craving stuff but I don't know if it's just because I'm hungry more often or what? Graham crackers are definitely my friend!

Oh the diaper changes! I just know I'm going to hurl this pregnancy... not because it's nausea I can't control necessarily. It's the nausea and changing a disgusting diaper at the same time. NOT FUN AT ALL! Oh and on top of that...Daddy made changing time play time so now everytime Corben is on the changing table he kicks his legs wildly and laughs... so it makes it very hard to change a diaper!!! Thanks daddy! But I love you anyway!

Ugh I don't like disciplining. I know what my parents meant when I would get a spanking and they would say they are doing it because they love me. It would be so easy to just let my kid do whatever the heck he wants - like jump wildly off the changing table or pull out all the dvd's and crawl all over them ... sigh. Parenting is a lot of work and discipline!! More for you than for them! It's hard to be consistent every single time. You find yourself saying things too many times "Corben... no touch" as he takes his hand away... looks at me and then goes in to touch again.... I just want to say "no touch" again but I know I need get up off the couch and discipline or "train". It's just so easy to say ... don't make me tell you again... you heard what I said... don't do it again... one more time and I'm gonna.... It's just laziness, PARENT!! You are a parent... be one!! Sorry...little tangent there. Aren't there just times you wish you could just stop people in there tracks and give them a good shake... or kick in the rear? :) Love... can't you tell I'm in a loving mood?!

Okay I'm done with all my rabbit trails. Pregnancy is going great. I'm going to call the midwife first thing next week and make my first appointment.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Minty Fresh!

Chad found this website through a friend and so far I am extremely impressed with it. Believe me, I am the free spirit in the relationship so spreadsheets and financial blah is not my favorite. But this website is totally free and will alert you when your bank account is low, you've went over your budget on a certain category etc. How cool is that? It even breaks down your monthly spending with pie charts (now I am a visual person!) I love it... and the best part - totally free! It tracks everything automatically. No need to calculate your receipts to figure out what you spent in each budget category... it does it for you and you can see automatically where your money is going and if you spent too much on shopping this month! Oops!

Check it out. You won't be disappointed. Not to mention their logo is pretty snazzy too. :)

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Great Are You

When I was checking my friend Sara's blog this week she had one of her favorite songs called "who am I" as a feature on her "favorite Friday" at first I mistook it for a song by a not extremely well known band called Downhere. After looking back at their cd on my itunes library I realized that the song is called "Great Are You," "who am I" is a phrase in the chorus.

I started listening to a few of their songs that I haven't heard in so long. They are really amazing. My two favorites are "Calmer of the Storm" and "Great Are You." Of course the song "Rock Stars Need Money" is hilarious but not as spiritually fulfilling :) "Calmer of the Storm" really speaks to me. It talks about the storms of life and how we want so much to control our will and God's. Man are they reading my mail. I'm a "fixer" if something goes wrong I can take care of it, handle it, flip it around backwards and hang it by it's toes until it works. I, I, I... Do we see a pattern here? I'm so glad that I came to know the Lord at a young age because... sometimes I really think if I was left to my own devices I would be an agnostic or just think that I am capable enough to handle the world. I need God, I can't do this thing called life on my own. I can't have a good marriage, be a loving mother, a calm discipliner, an understanding wife. I would not know the peace that comes through a relationship with him. And I would not be as willing and able to give grace even when, in my own flesh, I feel the person doesn't deserve it. Of course they don't... do any of us? Does that change the fact that you should freely give? Nope.

Here is their song "Great Are You." I couldn't find a great video of it because they aren't a huge band but this should suffice. I love live music... but that's another post...

How I love your works, My God, My King...

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Good God, Good Doctor, Good All Around.

I had my first interview with a pediatrician. I never got around to doing interviews before Corben because ... let's see.. I was working full time, OBGYN visits, lamaze classes etc. So it just didn't happen. I'm kind of glad I did it now after I've been a mom for a year, I feel like I know more of what to ask, what my practical concerns are...

Of course the doctor started off with the normal spiel about how the office is run. What appointments will be like, how long, and that I can call him anytime etc. Then asked if I had any questions. I was very upfront about my main concern which was in general his medical philosophy on the big issues like breastfeeding, vaccines, when to start solid foods, and am I going to be asked to come in every time I have a question about something or does he promote trying to take care of issues at home.

I was very impressed with his answers and he seemed very down to earth and sensible. That's all I wanted! He admitted that vaccine concerns are valid and any type of intervention has possible side effects. He had a child die from Amoxicillin. It's very rare but it happens. Thank you! Finally someone that admits that there should be caution with anything we give our children. I'm not crazy! Okay maybe a little :) He said that usually the way he handles it when parents don't want any, is that he suggests some that he thinks are very necessary and then there are some that aren't as necessary. In hopes that they would at least try the more pressing ones. He said he's perfectly fine with a modified schedule and for the past seven years he decided to not give the MMR until after two because of all the concerns from parents about autism. He doesn't personally believe that there is a correlation but that's what he decided to do in his practice. He actually cares about what the parents are concerned about? Enough to change how he gives vaccines... against the suggested schedule??? I totally expected to be disappointed to tell you the truth. I searched for pediatricians in the area and many of them had strong opinions about it on their websites. So I knew I should not even try with those practices.

We discussed his experience and training with breastfeeding moms and babies and when to start solids etc. And I was upfront with my view on going to see doctors - of course I want your opinion but there are going to be those times when I feel like I should go with my motherly instincts. He said "a lot of mom's come in with lots of questions and I'll go through each one with them and make suggestions and give my medical opinion and if you want to try another way then I just note that on the chart and it's no big deal."

The biggest issue was for me to feel like I can have an open conversation with my son's doctor. If I can't then I know my son isn't going to get the best medical care. And I do feel like I can talk to this doctor. He was reasonable and approachable.

That's all I wanted and I got it with the first doctor I interviewed. God is so good. Now I don't have to worry about where Corben will get medical care and if I will have to fight my doctor every visit or feel like a crazy person just because I want to do something different.

Peace. God takes care of us every step of the way.

So we'll probably have our 18 month check up with the new doctor and then shortly after we'll have well baby checkups with the new addition.

I could not be happier and the best part is he is right around the corner. I could walk to the practice if I wanted to. How nice is that? If there is ever a major concern and I need to bring Corben in I won't have to go far.

.. Did I mention that God is good?
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